The Never Was...

I'm writing a book! Well... I've written it. It's done. I started writing it years ago... 24 years ago in fact. I've also written the sequel. And 75% of the 3rd one. And 50% of the 4th one. But anyway... Back to the first one. Genesis A.D. a wonderful sci-fi, fantasy adventure staring a ragtag group of survivors hoping to defeat the evil bad guys and rebuild an annihilated world. Near 500 pages of characters, environments and action. All of it inspired by my favourite media growing up. Blade Runner, Doom, Quake, Street Fighter 2, and just great story telling.  It's been ready for release for a long, long time. Yet, I just can't do it. I once said if I was a painter and my work was hung in galleries, I'd be at the gallery everyday, behind the valvet rope with my paints, touching up and altering my work.  I once summoned the courage to sell an early version of Genesis A.D. I sold many copies and almost all who read it loved it. The punctuation and grammar was ...

I'm wrestling this weekend. Nothing major, a tag team match with a good friend of mine, Luke Reznor. The day before I'll be taking training. Haven't done that for a while. I'll also be filming some stuff for a video segment on an upcoming show. Love pro wrestling. I've been doing it for the majority of my life—22 years in fact. Yet, I find myself in a weird conundrum... You see, I always look forward to performing. When I'm at work I think about matches and show my colleagues highlights from my bouts. I look up move lists and think about my character. Indeed I do love pro wrestling. However, I feel the closer I get to the date of the event, I begin to shut down, switch off. Stop caring.  I finish my performance, get backstage, and I'm high as a kite. I feel great. And I wish I could go back out and do it again. I'm never sure why this is. I've tried to break it down into a few sections. -Learn of my opponent and either get excited or anxious. -Drive ...